Survey
Instructions: Answer the following questions as completely as possible. Comment with your responses under your team header. Put your character's name in the subject!
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1. What memory from another (list name and team) gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you feel this way?
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Coral
Ruby
Re: Ruby
Dune from Ruby shared a memory of his family with me, and of a tragedy between them... It's sad, that he has that pain in his life, and I wish there was something I could do to help him. But he told me he wasn't giving up, and he believes in himself, so I'll believe in him too. He's a strong person. And... I'm happy that he shared something so personal with me. That he trusted me with it. Even if he said he was only doing it because he found out something about me.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
I didn't mean to at all, but I ended up sharing the memory of a secret with my family with Chronosome. The details are confidential, so I'm not sharing! But the feelings... I wanted to make my siblings happy. I wanted to make them feel safe and loved and proud of who they were, to ease the pain put on them by the world. I didn't choose to share that because they're my siblings secrets, not mine. I'm mad that you showed someone that without me wanting to! I'm upset that I betrayed my sibling's confidence like that. It's awful!
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
Yes, I just said so. I'm not happy about how the grapes showed memories even when we didn't want them to, it's a betrayal, a betrayal! Those aren't mine or your secrets to share.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Family drama important for shared trust and increased worries about her teammate
Cute kids having fun Sora loev Chronosome and his cute heroic ambitions but doesn't want to share her heroic secrets with him BETRAYAL AND DISTRUST AND SECRETS
Re: Ruby
Memory with Sky on Amethyst.
It angered me and saddened me. I could not help reacting to it. For me, the pain of possession will always be a strong one, one I will carry with me always. And I fear for those who cannot fight it, who sway under its hold. I fought and I won. But who is to say that was not merely luck? Stronger men have fallen.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
Sharing the memory of my aunt Alia was more difficult than I expected, since her loss is still very near and close to my heart. I laid her to rest myself, in secrecy, to give her the burial she deserves. I shared it because my team deserves to know more about me and at times, I know I am disinclined to share details of my life and . . . its tragedies. That being said, it should not always be seen that way. We teach each other and life is a long learning process.
And Alia's fate will never again happen.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
I have no regrets in sharing my experiences. Even if some were not my own, in a way. I do not fear my memories or my past, so having regrets is pointless.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
With Sora. This was important because he wants Sora to understand him and confide in him. So he was taking the first step.
With Sky, discussing the sensation of existing without a body and being trapped. A difficult time for Leto because he was struggling with his own recent trauma of it.
Jasper
Ao
They told the Persona what they thought of the game in that memory and it wasn't one of the decent ones. So I guess it's nice to know that even now the Jasper I know and the Jaspers I've met haven't changed that much... At least, it looks like none of us retain a fondness to the kind of things that like to be toyed with her.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it? They're the same. I know the kinds of memories I have. I've accepted what they were a long time ago. The easiest answer to that would be things like 'when we were fighting the secrets,' but I don't think that's right. In the moment, they're intense... But right now... As memories they're all important. They're all proof I exist, so the feelings are the same. I didn't really share anything that I wouldn't be able to share with someone else here in some way. Sharing memories isn't as important as making them.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not? No. I didn't share with anyone I didn't want to this time. I don't mind learning about other people, but it's not my place to judge their memories. My own memories barely make sense to me sometimes that I'm not going to subject them to someone if I don't have to. I didn't share with anyone I thought would judge them or would upset them if something wrong came out.
The thing I regret, if any, is the idea you found this necessary. We don't need to get mixed up memories, as I know happened, to learn about people. And seeing someone else's memories isn't really a fresh perspective when you only have half the context. The important part of the memory is the person behind it.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Swift. Jasper feelings.
Shinji Sharing memories of Eureka. Ao doesn't usually share fond things or know how to deal with them so this was his attempt.
Re: Jasper
1. What memory from another (list name and team) gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you feel this way?
[N/A. Swift was going to share some with Tsukihiko but we started too late and I had to go out this afternoon so we haven't got there yet.]
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
Hah... I shared the memory of someone being sent to murder me because she felt I never should have lived. I was cut open and had my guts spilled everywhere. It interrupted a moment that was almost peaceful. It's a struggle between wanting to die, and wanting not to die like that, you know? I shared it because I want Swift to understand me, and he needed to see that before he could see anything else. I don't think it worked.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
I don't care any more.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Sharing with Swift - it seems awful and mean but he actually is reaching out to Swift here; he wants to be understood. He's pretty vindictive though.
Nonon
A memory of a previous game, from Swift, on Jasper. It disgusted and irritated me. Because I was shocked to see how a Persona can behave.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
My memory of leading my army against the foe, of course. Because it's of me doing what I do best, and wanted others to appreciate what kind of strong person I am.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
Nah. Though I was little unnerved by Gingerbread's because I had never considered what it's like to be unsure of oneself before.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
http://aather.dreamwidth.org/1148276.html?thread=926118772#cmt926118772 (It's Nonon and an idol sharing memories, meaningful because they both have MUSIC POWERS but in vastly, vastly different ways. [Nonon's is destructive and works to oppress others, but Chieri's works on the principle of INSPIRING HOPE!])
http://aather.dreamwidth.org/1148276.html?thread=926137972#cmt926137972 (It's Nonon bonding with Swift over past team shenanigans and Jasper being Jasper.)
Citrine
Mocha Chip
Ren of Sterling shared a memory of some kind of "examination" with me. It was...deeply confusing. I know little of machines, but it seemed at once both cold and yet deeply warm and personal, that he could be treated as a machine and yet have such a caring bond with this Aoba of his.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
I shared my conversations with a man known as Sebastian with Lilypad on Peridot...it was not a particularly significant memory, but I have none of those to start with.
It gives me strange feelings, of fellowship with this Sebastian as well as of...of fear of my own past. I know there are terrible things waiting for me to remember them. And that is why I shared it with this irritating creature who seemed so full of enthusiasm. He should learn that not all is light.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
No. My memories obeyed me and only showed themselves when I wished it. I thank you, Persona, for allowing me that much choice in the matter.
And no one shared anything too appalling with me, for which I am duly grateful.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
With Lilypad -- Fenris mocks his cheerful disposition, but ultimately he finds himself discussing hope and possibly friendship as well.
With Ren -- Fenris discusses personhood with Ren, which is significant for him because, as he is already dimly aware, he struggles with his own right to be a person.
Light
I got a memory from Clue of Turquoise. It made me feel really confused as to how he's friend with our friend Kira since when they first met I'm pretty sure Kira beat the shit out of him. But he seemed fine with that. I think he's just weird sometimes.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
I don't want to talk about it.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
Yes. You lying sack of shit don't tell people they can share what they want and then have your damn grapes share something else! I didn't need this today!
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Learning he had sex with his sister and having a total mental breakdown
Leearning Killua is a staker because it's adorable
Carnelian
Re: Carnelian
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it? Probably the one where I sang to Prim, because I miss her and I want her to be safe.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not? I don't know. I want to participate, but I really don't like sharing all that much.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Bucky, for the above-state reasons, mostly, and Loup, because they're new friends and just getting to know each other.
Tiger's Eye
Re: Tiger's Eye
Diamond from Sterling showed me a memory of her friend betraying her. Of course something like that inspired feelings, friends... I've never been very good at that, but even I know a friend you've known all your life shouldn't abandon you like that. But on another level, we're from the same world and part of the same group that Noa betrayed. It's a difficult path, the one we're walking. I used to believe that in order to succeed on that path, you had to crush the dreams of those around you to achieve your own. I don't anymore. I think... It's fine. For friends to push each other, to strive and work hard for their dreams even if they conflict with someone you loves, because both those dreams are valuable. So even if it's sad, and forces you on a different path, your rivals can still be precious comrades that you want to protect and encourage. I don't want to crush anyone's dreams anymore. I don't want to resent anyone who succeeds where I can't anymore, it's painful... AKB0048 is different from that. The stage of our dreams isn't one where that bitterness and hatred belongs. So that Noa turned against all that and joined our enemy because she fell victim to that thinking, it... bothers me. A lot.
But, I don't want to hate Noa, or for Diamond to give up on her. Noa doesn't have the heart of an idol, but Diamond still wants to sing with her... I want their friendship to succeed. For Diamond to pull her through like my friends could for me.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
I shared the memory of the concert at Lancastar. Entertainment is illegal in my world, that concert was almost cancelled and we risked our lives to sing there. Lancastar... is the place I saw my first concert, with my first friends. It's the place our dream was born. So to return there held a lot of significance, I wanted to see those people so badly. To sing and inspire them in the same place I was inspired. The concert was a great success, all of us shone so brightly and our fans were so happy. We could feel their emotions so strongly. I shared that memory with a musician who wanted to see something impressive because it's something we're both interested in, and I wanted to show her something impressive and inspiring.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
I don't regret it. I chose to share my memories, that's the game, and I'm always going to try my hardest. I won't regret those efforts.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Idols with Diamond learning about each other's friendships and the problems in their world, the strife someone precious to her is facing
THE POWER OF ROCK... neither of us are rock genre but they both care about music and want to look impressive and cool to each other and have FEELINGS about music
Heliodor
Re: Heliodor
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it? I don't have many meaningful memories yet, but... it's a memory where I'm getting to fight this big guy... it isn't much, but it tells methat I'm a determined person. I shared it because I don't mind sharing, if it can help my team.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not? No I don't regret any of that.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Nova, whom she's getting to know better - and whose life she thinks is pretty damn nasty
Fingon, whom she's also getting to know - this guy is a huge mystery to her.
Peridot
Emerald
Re: Emerald
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it? The memory of Shisui dying. I felt irritation because that wasn't what I had intended to share. Your grapes are in need of repairs.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not? I don't regret receiving any but I regret sharing the ones I hadn't planned on sharing. And obviously I regret it because it wasn't what I wanted to do in the first place.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why. with Zen and Clara. Bonding with teammates is important. Particularly since Itachi has been bad about bonding with teammates, or anyone, lately.
Turquoise
Moonrise/Fingon
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it? That in which at my own hands a friend was crippled; I feel that another path must have been possible, and had I found it, he would not be harmed so. It was done for the understanding of a shared friend.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not? I do not see how regret would shape past or future in a benefactory way.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Yo this one is actually pretty significant because it makes him see his own memory of the Kinslaying at Alqualondë (killing his own kind) in a bit of a different light - mostly due to realizing just how much more killing his own bothers him on principle than it seems to bother other races.he's not sure if that makes the fact that he still did it bette ror worse - but basically some conflicted feelings have entered his disgust with himself.
Sapphire
Iolite
Amethyst
Starlit Cat
She was lonely and sad. I think she's been wanting friends for a long time and it's scary for her. It's hard feeling like you don't belong with people. But that's why I want to do my best to be by her side! I won't run away, because we're friends. I think she wants them... so I'm not going to abandon her yet!
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it? All my memories are energetic~ We do a lot in them and never give up! [ . . . ] I didn't want to give that memory, though! Maki-chan and Hanayo-chan... That was between us, you know? It's not important here because I sing for fun. Muse isn't here so it's not the same...
I don't think it was fair that it was that one! There's lots that a feel, but you can't ask me to explain it. There's too much to choose just one way about things... So I guess my answer is I don't know how I feel, haah? That's okay, too.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not? ...If you had asked to share that memory I wouldn't have minded so much. But the memories I received were important signs of friendship! I'm going to cherish them. Even the ones that I don't understand or are scary, I won't forget. I think my memories were unforgettable, too~
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Probably the most important! Rin's been off-and-on trying to befriend Ginger since arriving. Basically everytime she sees her to ultimately rejection. Ginger tries to get Rin to go away be showing she thought herself a murderer, but it just makes Rin more persistent. Ends in planning to read together and look for stars(?).
Karigan. Specifically since it has the "I'm not fit to be an idol memory".
Sky
Dune from Ruby showed me a memory and ah... I suppose I was still rattled from the one I showed him, since it wasn't what I meant to show, so I was confused and upset, and it took me some time to make sense of it.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
I shared a memory with Dune I didn't mean to share, I was scared because I'm a very closed-off person and do not enjoy sharing things, especially when I don't intend to. And I shared it because I thought I was sharing something else.
That was incredibly rude of you, incidentally.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
I don't regret it but only because he was very understanding.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Thread with Dune. Important because they just met and Sky feels a sense of kinship with him, which is super new because Sky used to be very team-focused.
Starlit Cat. Cute teammate showed him a memory of her singing with friends and it gives Sky a better understanding of her and also she's adorable.
Kunzite
Mirai/Gingerbread
O- Or, um, when they want to sing. I don't want to trouble them.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it? W- Well... I wanted to show that I wasn't someone people should talk to... so I showed a memory of me yelling at someone because I'm a murderer. It made me sad thinking about it, but it can't be helped.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not? No, I had nothing to lie about... and receiving memories was part of the game, and if I could do the game properly, then I want to see more.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
this one, because friendship! or, well, "friendship". Gingerbread isn't sure yet as to why Rin hasn't ran away from her.
Knights
Mickey Mouse
I'd say the one I got from Mirai, who's from Kunzite. I could tell she was reluctant about sharin' it, but she still did... And it changed how I see her. In that memory, she was scared but determined to do what she thought was right. She wouldn't let anythin' stop her. Now I really wanna learn more about her.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
It's hard ta decide, I tried ta give out my most positive ones... But I suppose I'd go with the first one I got - when I met my gal Minnie! It was one of the happiest moments of my life, and not much else could ever top it! I hope they all felt as happy as I did!
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
No way! We all became closer because of this event! I think this was a good thing to happen for all of us. I wouldn't mind doin' it again sometime!
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Shinji, Mickey cements that most of Shinji's memories are unpleasant, but he's still willing to help the boy out.
Ben, Mickey... still isn't sure why Ben reacted like that, but he learned that deep down the kid's got a good heart and he genuinely means well.
Bucky
Nova on Carnelian shared a memory of being with her little sister...I guess it made me kinda sentimental. I want her to be happy with her family, if that's even possible. She deserves it.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
It's gotta be the one where Cap--where Steve made me myself again.
You're some kinda god, so I don't know if you ever had a broken bone and felt it snap back into place. It hurts like hell. That's how this memory went. And showing it to someone else? Makes me feel kinda naked and hurt.
I didn't share it. I didn't mean to. That ball's in your court, pal. A dirty trick, if you ask me.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
I don't got a problem with any of the memories I got from others in this game. I don't mind, if it helps me understand people better, and help 'em. And the ones I chose to share, I chose for a reason. That's fine.
The ones that got slipped into the mix without me choosing? Yeah. If I don't share something, I got a reason for not sharing it. People don't need to know about some stuff underneath. That's supposed to stay hidden, but you guys in Aather got a way of digging. I ain't ready to learn to live with that, even now.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Talking about family with Nova -- Bucky identifies a lot with Katniss sometimes, since they're both people who've had a hard life and often wish they could be someone other than who they feel they are deep down. Discussing family with her gave him some insight into what's important to her, and why things are different for him.
Accidentally sharing an important memory with Karigan -- Karigan is someone who Bucky fronts hard around, trying to be a reliable and cheery protector for her. So it's significant that she saw something he'd normally keep well-hidden from her and still reacted sympathetically.
Robin
The memory I got from Bucky on Onyx probably gave me the strongest feelings. He... was ordered to kill his best friend, but it was while he was brainwashed and he couldn't fight the brainwashing. His friend used... a magical device and forced him out of the brainwashing.
It... was just really upsetting and made me cry because of how much it upset him. I know this memory hurts him a lot because of what he did while he was brainwashed. I want to help ease the pain of it and help him work though it. I just don't know if he relies on me enough for that.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
I guess the memory of talking to King Zachary about not being a Rider held the strongest feelings for me. First because I was upset about his calling me a Green Rider and everyone assuming that just because I'd run one message for them that I would continue, and secondly because it ... it reminded me of something that I don't quite remember yet. Something I saw in a telescope that showed pieces of the past, present, and future. I... saw someone who looked like an older Zachary, who begged me to stay because he couldn't bear the thought of losing me? And it scared me... having someone who needed me so much that I didn't even know.
So... frustration and fear... I guess were the feelings. I'm still not sure what to do about the memory so I don't think about it much. I know I didn't even have a long time to think about it back home either. I really just don't know what to do with it.
Anyway, I showed it to Sangria... I guess because if she was uncomfortable because her memory got messed up and I saw something she hadn't meant to share, then I could share something that made me uncomfortable too.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
I don't regret sharing or receiving most of the memories. I tried to be careful what I picked because I have some that I don't think anyone needs to see, and I wanted to let people pick the kinds of memories they wanted, so when Cat asked for something exciting, it was really hard to pick something that wasn't more terrifying for me than exciting, but I think I did okay there.
I do regret the memories that were shared with me that weren't what people had been planning to share. It happened to three different people, and I... I guess I really want people to be able to share memories with me that they're ready to share with me. I don't want them to feel like I've invaded a private moment or something that hurts them. If they meant to share those with me, it would be different because it would be a new level of trust and friendship with them, and I would feel honored at that trust...
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with Cat -- It's one of the few memories that Kari had that she really tried to balance what Cat requested (excitement) with the fact that all of the excitement she's had in her memories was pretty much pure terror attached to it. Then having to explain the memory for her was a little unsettling because Cat is so very positive all the time and... that was the beginning of one of Kari's worst memories to date.
with Bucky -- It's the first time she's really gotten the full explanation of that memory. It's... also the first time she's really kind of declaration of YOU ARE MY FRIEND AND LET ME HELP YOU DEAL WITH THIS at him.
Ren
Mickey - fellow knight's memory gave me a strong sense of understanding what 'love at first sight' was. It seems like a very powerful emotion, albeit not one that I believe I am supposed to feel.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
I chose not to share some of my strongest memories because I only have a few, and two of them are quite humiliating to me. The one I shared was the one with the most positive emotion -- a quiet moment between myself and Aoba, a private and intimate care ritual -- and I wished to present that side of myself.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
I do not. Everything is 'perspective'.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
The meaning of personhood - Ren is struggling with the idea of being an individual or unique being here as a knight, living on his own, despite the fact that he is (apparently) a machine designed to supplement another person's lifestyle.
Best pals - It's difficult for Ren to put a term to his relationship with Aoba, and Mickey's combination of true love memory and use of the word 'pal' made him think about it. He didn't argue anything, but he's struggling because between the two concepts Aoba falls much more in line with the first.
Re: Knights
I didn't share very many, so Bucky's by default, I guess. Mostly I felt confused -- his world's very different than mine, so I didn't understand most of what was happening. It was impressive, though, being a superhero. And it's definitely good to remember that you don't need powers or skills to do what needs to be done, if you're in the right place at the right time and you're determined.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
I didn't mean to share the rift with Bucky...I don't know how that happened, but I'm guessing that wasn't as much of an accident as it seemed. I wish you hadn't done that. But almost being torn to shreds of Essence and scattered across time is definitely the strongest feeling I've had in a memory.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
I regret sharing the rift; Bucky gave me something nice and I wanted to return the favor, and I didn't want to share that with anyone. It was one of the worst things that happened to me -- at least that I remember -- so I don't see why I'd want to share that memory.
As for receiving, I was happy that people wanted to show me nice memories. Though I could probably see them anyway, if they were willing outside the game, so I'm more used to it than most.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Bucky and Robin, the former for trauma sharing and the latter for cute.