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Survey
Instructions: Answer the following questions as completely as possible. Comment with your responses under your team header. Put your character's name in the subject!
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1. What memory from another (list name and team) gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you feel this way?
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Knights
Mickey Mouse
I'd say the one I got from Mirai, who's from Kunzite. I could tell she was reluctant about sharin' it, but she still did... And it changed how I see her. In that memory, she was scared but determined to do what she thought was right. She wouldn't let anythin' stop her. Now I really wanna learn more about her.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
It's hard ta decide, I tried ta give out my most positive ones... But I suppose I'd go with the first one I got - when I met my gal Minnie! It was one of the happiest moments of my life, and not much else could ever top it! I hope they all felt as happy as I did!
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
No way! We all became closer because of this event! I think this was a good thing to happen for all of us. I wouldn't mind doin' it again sometime!
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Shinji, Mickey cements that most of Shinji's memories are unpleasant, but he's still willing to help the boy out.
Ben, Mickey... still isn't sure why Ben reacted like that, but he learned that deep down the kid's got a good heart and he genuinely means well.
Bucky
Nova on Carnelian shared a memory of being with her little sister...I guess it made me kinda sentimental. I want her to be happy with her family, if that's even possible. She deserves it.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
It's gotta be the one where Cap--where Steve made me myself again.
You're some kinda god, so I don't know if you ever had a broken bone and felt it snap back into place. It hurts like hell. That's how this memory went. And showing it to someone else? Makes me feel kinda naked and hurt.
I didn't share it. I didn't mean to. That ball's in your court, pal. A dirty trick, if you ask me.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
I don't got a problem with any of the memories I got from others in this game. I don't mind, if it helps me understand people better, and help 'em. And the ones I chose to share, I chose for a reason. That's fine.
The ones that got slipped into the mix without me choosing? Yeah. If I don't share something, I got a reason for not sharing it. People don't need to know about some stuff underneath. That's supposed to stay hidden, but you guys in Aather got a way of digging. I ain't ready to learn to live with that, even now.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Talking about family with Nova -- Bucky identifies a lot with Katniss sometimes, since they're both people who've had a hard life and often wish they could be someone other than who they feel they are deep down. Discussing family with her gave him some insight into what's important to her, and why things are different for him.
Accidentally sharing an important memory with Karigan -- Karigan is someone who Bucky fronts hard around, trying to be a reliable and cheery protector for her. So it's significant that she saw something he'd normally keep well-hidden from her and still reacted sympathetically.
Robin
The memory I got from Bucky on Onyx probably gave me the strongest feelings. He... was ordered to kill his best friend, but it was while he was brainwashed and he couldn't fight the brainwashing. His friend used... a magical device and forced him out of the brainwashing.
It... was just really upsetting and made me cry because of how much it upset him. I know this memory hurts him a lot because of what he did while he was brainwashed. I want to help ease the pain of it and help him work though it. I just don't know if he relies on me enough for that.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
I guess the memory of talking to King Zachary about not being a Rider held the strongest feelings for me. First because I was upset about his calling me a Green Rider and everyone assuming that just because I'd run one message for them that I would continue, and secondly because it ... it reminded me of something that I don't quite remember yet. Something I saw in a telescope that showed pieces of the past, present, and future. I... saw someone who looked like an older Zachary, who begged me to stay because he couldn't bear the thought of losing me? And it scared me... having someone who needed me so much that I didn't even know.
So... frustration and fear... I guess were the feelings. I'm still not sure what to do about the memory so I don't think about it much. I know I didn't even have a long time to think about it back home either. I really just don't know what to do with it.
Anyway, I showed it to Sangria... I guess because if she was uncomfortable because her memory got messed up and I saw something she hadn't meant to share, then I could share something that made me uncomfortable too.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
I don't regret sharing or receiving most of the memories. I tried to be careful what I picked because I have some that I don't think anyone needs to see, and I wanted to let people pick the kinds of memories they wanted, so when Cat asked for something exciting, it was really hard to pick something that wasn't more terrifying for me than exciting, but I think I did okay there.
I do regret the memories that were shared with me that weren't what people had been planning to share. It happened to three different people, and I... I guess I really want people to be able to share memories with me that they're ready to share with me. I don't want them to feel like I've invaded a private moment or something that hurts them. If they meant to share those with me, it would be different because it would be a new level of trust and friendship with them, and I would feel honored at that trust...
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
with Cat -- It's one of the few memories that Kari had that she really tried to balance what Cat requested (excitement) with the fact that all of the excitement she's had in her memories was pretty much pure terror attached to it. Then having to explain the memory for her was a little unsettling because Cat is so very positive all the time and... that was the beginning of one of Kari's worst memories to date.
with Bucky -- It's the first time she's really gotten the full explanation of that memory. It's... also the first time she's really kind of declaration of YOU ARE MY FRIEND AND LET ME HELP YOU DEAL WITH THIS at him.
Ren
Mickey - fellow knight's memory gave me a strong sense of understanding what 'love at first sight' was. It seems like a very powerful emotion, albeit not one that I believe I am supposed to feel.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
I chose not to share some of my strongest memories because I only have a few, and two of them are quite humiliating to me. The one I shared was the one with the most positive emotion -- a quiet moment between myself and Aoba, a private and intimate care ritual -- and I wished to present that side of myself.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
I do not. Everything is 'perspective'.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
The meaning of personhood - Ren is struggling with the idea of being an individual or unique being here as a knight, living on his own, despite the fact that he is (apparently) a machine designed to supplement another person's lifestyle.
Best pals - It's difficult for Ren to put a term to his relationship with Aoba, and Mickey's combination of true love memory and use of the word 'pal' made him think about it. He didn't argue anything, but he's struggling because between the two concepts Aoba falls much more in line with the first.
Re: Knights
I didn't share very many, so Bucky's by default, I guess. Mostly I felt confused -- his world's very different than mine, so I didn't understand most of what was happening. It was impressive, though, being a superhero. And it's definitely good to remember that you don't need powers or skills to do what needs to be done, if you're in the right place at the right time and you're determined.
2. What memory of your own gave you the strongest feelings? What were they? Why did you share it?
I didn't mean to share the rift with Bucky...I don't know how that happened, but I'm guessing that wasn't as much of an accident as it seemed. I wish you hadn't done that. But almost being torn to shreds of Essence and scattered across time is definitely the strongest feeling I've had in a memory.
3. Did you regret sharing any of your memories or receiving any memories? Why or why not?
I regret sharing the rift; Bucky gave me something nice and I wanted to return the favor, and I didn't want to share that with anyone. It was one of the worst things that happened to me -- at least that I remember -- so I don't see why I'd want to share that memory.
As for receiving, I was happy that people wanted to show me nice memories. Though I could probably see them anyway, if they were willing outside the game, so I'm more used to it than most.
OOC: Link up to two threads that were meaningful for your character and tell me why.
Bucky and Robin, the former for trauma sharing and the latter for cute.